Transition

Transition, this is the word that has been on my mind lately.  The word carries different meanings in today’s culture. Many people are in transition and aren’t even aware of it. I wasn’t aware of it myself. Webster’s dictionary defines the word as a: “passage from one state to, stage, subject, or place to another: change.” It also defines it as a: “movement, development, or evolution from one form stage, or style to another”. This last week we were moving the kid’s rooms around, we were moving our boys into their own rooms. I don’t know about you, but we had that one room that could be defined as no man’s land. It was a put all for all the things that just didn’t have a place. As we went through all of the things inside of that room, we were having to pull stuff out and move things around. It was such a mess. I have just spent the last couple months making my home clean and clutter free (for the most part). To walk around my home with boxes in different areas, stuff in new piles, and just so much junk…it was overwhelming. There were moments I wanted to scream, let’s be honest I may have lost my stuff a time or two. There were times I had to close myself in my room and shut down for a bit. As I was discussing this past week with one of my therapist, I said “I guess this is just what happens in transition.” I realized that I had been overwhelmed in fear of going back to where I started. I was afraid that I was back at the starting line. When in reality, I was the furthest thing from it. It hit me. It wasn’t just my physical home in transition, it has been my heart and my mind. Transition is hard, transition isn’t easy in the least bit. I think the most relatable image of transition is labor. With my 4^th child I went all natural, after many hours I thought I was done. I remember screaming, crying, and begging my doctor to just cut me. I was ready to give up and not too long after those moments I gave birth to my amazing miracle daughter. I know for me when I lose sight of where I am, I start to only look at the things around me. I see the mess, I feel the pressure and the pain from everything coming to a head. This is where the choice matters, unlike childbirth not all transitions “birth” naturally. I need you to know, I need me to know, that the end is in sight. You may be sitting here thinking you are right back where you started. You aren’t, you are right where you are supposed to be. In order to get through it, in order to get to the “end” you have to keep going. Don’t give up. It’s time to push. You have come such a long way, I know you are tired, but you are almost there. You can do this. So, wherever you are right now, if you are looking around at your “mess” or feeling like there isn’t much more you can take- press in, KEEP GOING! What you have been waiting for is right there, you are on the brink of your breakthrough! You will get through this! I will too! We’ve Got This!